I’ve had a few conversations this week that have made me reflect on my journey with blogging, facebook and instagram. It’s made me realise just how far I’ve come in the last couple of years and how I’ve been able to change through those years to get to where I am now.
My social media and blogging journey started with Instagram. I started using Instagram a lot when I first got sick because I discovered that it gave me a way to socialise and connect with people when I wasn’t able to physically do this. In all reality Instagram helped to keep me sane!
I remember in those early days it was really hard for me to share about myself. I used to hate getting comments on my photos and I’d procrastinate for days with replying to them! Being open and connecting with people sent me into a tail spin! I was so scared of being judged, I suppose I was ashamed of who I was.
When I started blogging I made a conscious decision to not blog about my illness. At the time I justified it as wanting to focus on something else but I later realised that it was because I was ashamed of my illness, that I was broken. I felt like a failure. I wasn’t perfect.
It took me 3 or 4 years to get to the point where I’m able to post on Instagram and Facebook daily and blog weekly. Before this I just couldn’t do it – it just wasn’t possible. To be honest with you I was harsh on myself because I wasn’t doing all the marketing things that the gurus said I “should” be doing.
Somewhere along the way I came to realise that whatever I could do was enough. And whatever I wrote and whatever images I shared were enough. It didn’t matter if they weren’t perfect. I didn’t matter if I wasn’t perfect.
Whatever I could do was enough.
I was enough.
I want you to know that you are enough too. Whatever you’re able to do in enough. Don’t beat yourself up because you’re not doing what everyone else says you should be doing. It’s okay that you’re photos aren’t gorgeous and your writing has spelling mistakes because it’s enough. You are enough.
You’re wonderful and amazing just the way you are.
With love, Lynda.
