I just can’t do it. It’s too hard. It’s not for me. I don’t have the patience.
Have you heard yourself say these things? Felt the pain and disappointment of not being able to do something?
This week I’ve been feeling all of this.
I’ve been trying to bring my dreams and desires to life and it’s been so very hard.
I’ve been self-sabotaging all over the place – not being able to sleep, feeling horrible, procrastinating, getting sucked into facebook – you know the story!
This is what happens any time I need to push through the energetic boundaries that surround me – writing up a new pattern, making a new project, or recording a video. Any time I want to do something new, and big, and wonderful.
It feels so very hard.
I’m learning how to push through these patterns.
I’m learning to know what they are and to show myself love when I feel this way. To go “it’s okay to feel this Lynda. It’s okay. Let’s take it one step at a time”.
I just to sit with the feeling. To not push it under layers of other stuff, and instead, I just feel it.
I want to move through it and be kind to myself.
To take one step at a time and to find one tiny little thing I can do to just start.
Maybe it’s just doing the first row or maybe it’s getting set up.
Sometimes I just tell myself it’s okay and go for a walk.
I’ve learnt that if I can do this, if I can stay with the feeling and just do something small, I can move through it.
The pain becomes easier, and my energetic boundaries open up and fly away.
And then, the beauty emerges.
Ahhhh, the bliss of being on the other side of my creative fears.
I drop into flow – there’s so much joy and passion here, it becomes so easy.
The pleasure of up levelling and moving forward.
Next time you feel the frustration and disappointment of not being able to do something – remember that there is beauty and flow on the other side of it.
Remember to sit in the feeling and just do something small to move forward.
You can do this, and the more you do it, the easier it gets.
With love, Lynda.
